I was in London with @AyowoleTinuola, and we were having a conversation.
Then she said, “Brother Gbenga, you’re really doing well. One would never guess you’ve gone through anything emotional.”

I laughed.

The day I truly learned my lesson was when my wife and I took Harmony to Eko Hospital. I spent a lot of money that day. At some point, the doctors asked for yet another test, and I said, “No more.”

My wife began to cry.
“Why are you saying no more? Do you want this girl to remain like this? We must do everything it takes to get a solution!”

So I said, “Okay,” and I continued.
By the time we were done, I had spent over 2 million naira and the entire day at the hospital.

On our way home, the Holy Spirit said to me:
“Today, you behaved like the king who trusted in physicians instead of Me. You allowed your emotions to lead you—and you forgot that I Am.”

I cried my eyes out as I drove home. That day, I lost everything—to emotion.

Despite all the samples they took at the hospital, the doctors didn’t give us a single drug—not one injection, not even basic medication. I spent the entire day there, and poured out my money. And to this day, that girl never received a single drug from anyone.

They just kept testing and testing. The baby cried non-stop as they took the samples. And I kept paying and paying—all because I let my emotions lead me.

There’s something else I’ve noticed—and to be honest, it scares me a bit…

Whenever I become too emotionally invested in something to the point where it begins to distract me from my fellowship with the Holy Spirit, that thing is just… gone.
I wake up, and it’s like it never existed. Even if it’s a human being, a pastor, a bishop—whoever it is—once it becomes a distraction, it’s removed.

I won’t go into too many examples, but I believe you understand what I’m saying. In some cases, people I deeply cared about even passed away—not because I didn’t love them, but because they had become the focus of my heart at a time when my heart belonged to God.

I recognized the pattern, and I made a decision:
I will never take my heart away from the Lord—for anyone or anything.
Not because I’m hard-hearted, but for everyone’s good. When God truly has your heart, everything else finds its rightful place.